Love sucks sometimes

So my husbands in a situation and he needs me to be there for him which is understandable because were married, I love him and everything but we havent been together since november and were suppose to be getting divorce, now he doesnt want the divorce? Something shady is going on I can feel it, womens intuition. He's gone for how long I dont know Im still waiting to hear back from his people. Were in two different states, I dont know what to do, Of course Im gonna be there for him because at the end of the day I cant hold grudes towards the motha fucka I swapped vows with even if he did do me wrong and deserted him when I needed him most. Our childs funeral, he wasnt there and neither were my inlaws. No phone calls or anything.Thinking about it makes me mad so Im not gonna get into it but talking to him on the phone, he pretty much is blaming me for why he is where he is, hold up wtf? This is the same dude that when I was trying to get us a place to stay and start over after the tragedy and you he said he wouldnt allow me to work because he thinks Im gonna fuck my co-worker.Who makes accusations like that. Thats not even close to some shit I would do, but he blames me for not doing all the shit a married man is suppose to do, instead of standing behind me with my career goals and just plans for our future he shot me down. Now Im willing to put all that to the back of my mind to help him in his situation. Im I crazy or Stupid?

King!

My sister got a new doggy he's tiny as hell. Cant wait until I get my pup:(

WTF?

LOL!!

Rompers and shit :)

I like rompers alot, I wanted to start wearing them last summer, but I was pregnant then and didnt think it would look right. Now I can see it being worn every other day instead of jeans, like I do everyday now, and Im not a shorts girl, then again maybe I might do the denim short thing, just gotta find the right one.My hair is growing but its not locking, only the ones in the back of my head is, is that suppose to be happening.I could just walk down the street and ask any random person since everybody has dread down here. Heres some other things I like for the summer.

So cute!!

Im excited about summer, last summer kinda sucked but I have a good feeling about this year.I wanna rock these all summer long,fuck flip flops

Puppy names

So I narrowed it down to the following: kool mo dee,warhol,wizkid,tipsy,sega,panda,quincy and rupert. I like wizkid! come here wizzy!

Boob job?

My tits are big and its annoying, there always in my way. there the size of my head no joke,Im trying to get healty lose the weight I gained while pregnant and while I ate my feelings and shit. If losing weight doesnt get them to aleast a d cup Im thinking Boobie reduction for real because I go to places like forever 21 and I see a cute little top it looks good on the mannequin and I go to try it on and it cant go over my chest or it wont button, so im forced to get a regular graphic tee when I really want the ruffle,flowery, silk shirt with a lady on it looking into the sky and shit.I know one thing I want my nipples pierced,I think it would be fun because no one would see it, especially with this dry spell.Goodness being married is ruining my sex life,Im horny!!

2 more weeks and $300 bucks

Ill have my puppy! I put down a deposit of $200 and that keeps him on hold for two weeks, I really need to hustle, gotta be on my grind to get the remainder of the cash plus vet visit and food and shit, and those squeaky thingy, those fucking toys that annoy the hell outta me.Im tryna think of a name for him,Im thinking storm since he's silver but it sounds like a female name, right? help me out here!

Not obsessed

Obsessed was shiteous, beyonce's acting was shitty too, the only beautiful,sexy thing about this bullshit was Idris Elba, good lawd oh yeah and beyonce fighting and cursing was entertaining as well, "come here bitch" lol. no seriously dont wasted money seeing this shit, I should have seen that judd apatow movie.To make shit worst I went to the ghetto movie theater, were black folks act steryotipcal and yell shit at the screen, wtf? they cant hear you.

I still have blackplanet?

Wow Im up and bored so I decided to visit blackplanet, it took me a minute to remember my username and password, but I did and its still up. I even found a old pic, I look mad different,I was all cute and girly.Blackplanet takes me back to my senoir year of highschool, ohhh the good ole' days

Fun at the laundro mat

So my computer is up and running a little better then before, Im still getting a laptop fuck that! because the computer goes crazy im the one to blame but anyways, my life in the past week have been intresting, for one I've like my seeing my grief councelor better then I do my reg therapist, maybe its because my grief therapist is a lady and she seems cool and my regular he's ok but he's a guy so I feel weirded out about some of the personal stuff I have to share. This is too much therapy for me, did I really ask for all this? My divorce is getting uglier by the minute, apparantly when you jewish and married you cant have sex with someone else even if your seperated, my husband brought this to my attention early as hell this morning. no hello just "i need pussy" I was like "ok? go get some then" weird.I havent had sex either and it shows I've gained weight, Im starting to dress like a butch lesbian and Im all violent and what not so Im suffering to, plus I know dude is lying. Laundry trip at 2 am brings some intresting characters, some guy tried to sell us (me and my sister) some neutogena products and some guy smelling like straight ass came in to use the change thingy and he just looked unkept and some nigerian guy asked my sister to marry him,lol.

Oh so loooong

Im still without a working computer this really fucking sucks, but I got my nails done while in atlanta! you like?. i'll be back, no one reads my shit anyways:(