My computer has herpes

So monday I was about to email my resume to a job post, when all of a sudden my computer started acting weird and eventually the computer kept shutting down everytime I logged into my settings, so I logged into my moms and the internet stopped working, I figured it was a virus and decided to do a partial system restore, but instead did a full restore now all my shit is gone, most of my music and all of my pictures,I was pissed, but after calling hp like 50 million times, I decided to figure shit out on my own and found out my computer has a trogan virus, so I havent used it since monday. Right now Im in maryland and I should be back home tomorrow,I dont feel like going back I really miss MD, but next week Im going to A town, then I'll really have some shit to blog about.Tonight Im gonna blaze one and go to sleep.

Lazy weekend

I didnt do shit this weekend,saturday night my meds got me fucked up,I felt high but not really high, like when your getting off a high(weed, not no hard shit)anyways it was crazy.Today we went out to ihop for some breakfast, me, my brother ,my sister and her boyfriend, then we hit up the local flea market my brother bought this glass bowl and I was jealouse because I have an ugly metal one, then we drove my brother back to school and I listened to some mixtapes I downloaded and took in the views.

Tokidoki

Im a big fan of tokidoki, and I've been wanting to a tokidoki tat for a while,when smashbox had makeup with the tokidoki art,I got one of the lipglosses from sephora, and I really want some of the hello kitty stuff.http://www.tokidoki.it/galleries/259/?page=1

Anniversary blues

Last thursday was my one year anniversary, it wasnt a joyous occation at all,because I have no clue where my fucking husband is, we've been seperated for a few months and he claims he's in new jersey but I think he's in maryland in his parents basment. he called yesterday to check on me the conversation lasted all of 2 mins because I didnt have shit to say to him, he left me when I needed him most, at first I was against divorce but now I dont give a fuck anymore.His mom emailed me asking me for my ssn,wtf? I want the divorce now,there all a bunch of weirdos.other then that I havent done shit,my brother came down for a visit, its his spring break he goes to a military school and he hates it(ha ha)I meet my new therapist last thursday also, he's a bit strange but I'll give him a try.

Team facelift: I wanna have your baby

I like this song.

Damn Amber!

I have a chick crush on amber rose, Im dead ass

Poppin out babies like there poppin gum

Last year was probably the most hardest year for me,I lost the most precious little person, my daughter and since then I've lost joy in almost everything, I've always been depressed but that put took me to another level. Since everything happen it seems that everyone is preggers, my sisters friends, celebrities and random strangers and it's annoying as fuck.The one that surprised me the most was kelis, she's one of my favorites as far as music and style, I like her because she does her and doesnt sound and look like other r&b chicks so finding out she was carrying nas's seed was a "wow" moment, yeah there married and shit but I remember reading somewhere that kids were not her top priority for a long while and yeah shit happens but for some reason I was hurt, just seeing her with her little bump made me feel bad. Am I crazy? I want a baby.

Trying to design my own blog is becoming nerve wrecking because I have no clue what the fuck i'm doing.I think i'm gonna say fuck it and go watch a movie or something.Besides from being annoyed because of the whole design thing, I hit a damn dog earlier today, the most traumatizing thing ever. So me and my brother were driving down the road on our way to the mall, the "Nasty song" was on and we're laughing at how stupid the song is when out of nowhere this black lab jets across the street and a car that was a few feet ahead on the next lane hits the dog and then the dog bounces off his car and right in front of my car and theres no way for me to move out of the way because the car that hits it first stops to I end up running over the dog,I stop and am so shocked that Im just like "oh fuck,oh fuck, I fucking killed a dog" then I look in my mirror and the dog gets up and runs away, that shit fucked me up for the rest of the day, now I feel like a horrible human being because just earlier I was talking about getting a dog and played with the neighbors dog.

Mall trip! yep

I went to the mall today to pay my phone bill,and while there decided to hit up "forever 21" just because last week they had cute shit.I was in that store for like 3 hours trying to come up with cute outfit ideas heres one of the items


and I want to pair them with these

locks

I started locking my hair about 3 weeks ago, so right now they just look like twisties,it's gonna take 5 months before they actualy start to look like dreads

New tat

Here's my new ink, aint he cute? Its crazy because I posted totally different ideas yesterday,but I changed my mind when I got there.

Happy Birth day Yaminah!

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What I've been doing with my time

So Im in therapy, and I have to find things that make me feel better about my messed up life so I have turned to the arts. I went to art college back in early 2000 but I didnt finish because I couldnt draw worth shit but I love magazines and enjoy cutting out images and back when I lived in georgia, my room had magazines clippings from vibe to vogue covering my entire bathroom window and I covered up all my notebooks, so I decided to give my sketch book a makeover, so I decided to cut up some things and be all artsy fartsy to let time go by and get my mind of other things.

Oh Goodness!

Today just isnt the day for me,I seriously want to kick my husband in the balls.

I need cheap accessories and a wife beater

All the stores I like aint here! why the hell did I leave baltimore,I need some basics and accessories and theres no urban outfitter's,h&m, american apperal or sephora theres forever 21 but Im fat right now and there shit is way to smedium for my liking,damn these tig ole bittys. Im not gonna lie I've even tried target but still nothing, maybe Im too picky but whatever.A friend told me theres good shopping in raliegh where she's from so Im def making a trip up that way but Im broke so its a catch 22.

I listen to this every morning

Stanky leg

Thats how you do that shit? Some chick in the club was doing it last week,this shit dont look right.

I want a puppy

So the other night I went out with my sister and a friend and my sisters friend,friend had the cutest little puppy and I wanted to steal him,I really want a dog, I had a mini poodle a couple years back but left her with my mother when I moved to Maryland and my mom gave my damn dog away without even asking, I paid like $600 for the dog and she gives it away for free,I was pissed but cant do shit about it now.Me and my husband got a pitt and she was cute but my husbands a douche and gave the dog away, so now im puppy-less and I really want one but I dont know what kind of dog to get, I want a small breed but also want a german sheppard real bad, I dont know my head hurts.

Tyra Show: Undercover Lezzies!

Even though I find Tyra Banks pretty fucking annoying, I still tune in mainly because we have no cable and fox is the only channel we get so I have no choice when I want entertainment. On todays show, she had chicks that like other chicks, nothing special but get this these girls are straight (oh shit son!) I dont know I feel like I've seen this some where before,oh yeah, everytime I walk outside.There was this one girl who was gay but only dated straight women and she went on a date with a straight girl, this whole episode was kinda boring, tyra needs to think of more topics besides im confused about my sexuality and my teen is having sex.

This sucks

so im trying to make this blog cute but my computer acting real homo right now. to be continued.....

yah blog

I cant seem to stay commited to anything anymore, honestly I dont really care to especially now with all the shit I've been through the past year, but I dont want to talk about that, Im going to try to stay commited to blogging, hopefully It will be fun and I wont say "fuck it" and never update, we shall see.